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Sometimes, I don't understand...What did I do .. to make you all hate me so much. I just don't have a clue. You hate people talking bad about you. I hate too. I'm a human. I have feelings too.. When it come to those emotions that I really can't even cheer myself up.. People tend to provoke it to be worst. and it's happening now. I can't stop myself.. I can't control myself. I just feel like scolding everything to every people who just fucked up my life for that moment. I'm spitting fire every moment to everybody.. I'm sure that scared away a lot of people.. But... I just can't take it ... For this time... I feel.. I'm not me. I think it's really rare to get my angry up to this high of a level. Is god trying to push me for the better? Why is it so many things to handle in one second? The days that I feel suffocated at night are back. I just can't breathe. To my Best Friend, I'm sorry to have that kind of thought while you're at your depths. I feel very very very bad for it.. People were like : " What kind of friend are you? " and.. I just sat there and think.. what kind of friend am I? To you? To everyone... Guess I'm not a good girl .. I really miss you .. I wish you were here with me.. I wish you were here with me to help me through all of this.. but I know now.. There's something more important than this.. I'm sorry... My sorries aren't enough to cover up this mess. :( I am a bitch to everyone. Nobody likes me.. Be it a friend or a lover or.. whatsoever it is. I always have something to do with them. All their shits have something to do with me. Please! I'm not a tissue paper. To my Valentines, Thank you.. for giving me a belated Valentines. :) I really liked it.. Be it the flowers or the accompaniment at the night with many many mosquitoes around.. But thanks.. :) The first time.. I ever celebrated a Valentines with my friend. And it's really sweeter I think it would turn out to be. Thanks for your shoulder too hee .. But there's something I hope you would know.. It's okay to open up sometimes.. Maybe not too much.. It's not good having so much things digging your heart.. Maybe you'll feel imma busybody now okay . ._.
Have fun and take care alright? To my Brother, I don't know why I will never get bored of your lame chats. -_- Like seriously lameeee... hahaha but .. thanks anyway okayy? You really calmed me down . and sorry too.. I might have thrown a lot of tantrums in front of you.. I'm having mood swings.. although that is not really a good excuse but.. I hope you buy this idea.. hahaha.. Take care of yourself too .. For those childish people who keep on provoking me.. I'm sorry to say, I won't be provoked by you anymore. It's tiring.. and it's really pointless. Does saying people's bad makes you happier? If it does not, stop it. You're hurting everyone.
我停止玩，因为我知道我自己玩不起。
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