Life was ... kinda perfect.
Friends around, loved by family.
There's always something that's bugging me.
Haih.. such failure, no?

College life, was.... nice. Friends are friendly and nice too .
Really liked them, but I hope that they are the ones that are worth to be trusted.
went to college with one of my really good best friends..
and soon my life start turning chaos. :(

in the start, we were really good..
but soon, i couldn't understand her anymore.
Just like how she couldn't understand me...
Then, I couldn't talk to her as easy like we used to be...

I hate the feeling.
Of being left out.
I guess nobody likes it..
but, they have probably never been left out by somebody so.....?
Idk.
I don't really care about left out by classmates.
I care about being left out by her.
The time she spend with our classmates and other people become more and more.. and there is always no time for me...
I wanted to talk to her about it, but then I think it wouldn't make a difference.

so this is what happens after that.
She grew real close with one of my friends, they start sharing secrets that I don't know.
Going out more with her than with me as she says that she has no time for me...
wow....
No time for me huh...........
Best friends huh?

Is it childish to think this way?
but, i know that i care, that's why.

This, taught me another valuable lesson?
To never trust people who are close to you. Yes.

NEVER.
I've gone through so many pain by trusting so many people that I THOUGHT they are worth it.
But everyone turns my expectation down.

Sometimes, i really like the good old days.
When everyone is still a nerd and living happy life just to get our grades good.

Life's hard when I'm 18.
I guess life is getting harder.

Time to buck up.
and go on.

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